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I don't think I will be taking the JLPT this year, after all. It's only two weeks away, and I still haven't found the time to really sit down and study for it. There's such a whirlwind of revenue-generating work coming in that it seems silly to 'waste' time on something that has no value for me (yet) aside from a sense of accomplishment. It feels like such a letdown to choose the JLPT to let go, though, because it's been a goal for years. Oh well. I'll just take it when I'm rich, and more pera pera desu. Next year, I hope. Haha!

(Or maybe I can just wing the JLPT anyway, but it's almost a whole day lost when I could be working on getting more of my backlog finished instead. *sigh* Well, we'll see.)

I'm settling down at work. I've been given more responsibilities, which I like, and I'm learning so many new things. I also finally got my own desk with a lockable cabinet. The last time I had one of those was over 10 years ago! XD

One upside to being busy is I have no time to get the doldrums and dwell on all the negative things that have happened this year. I have hope that I can end it with a bang, anyway. Fingers crossed! Things are looking up!

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I stepped on a snail last night, and its shell cracked to pieces. I always look at the ground when I walk so that I don't accidentally step on small creatures, but it was dark and I wasn't able to see it. I'm so sorry, Snail. I'd bring you back to life if I could. :(

Is this what mid-life crisis is like?

When I decided to quit my job, I promised myself I'd pursue my long-time dream of being my own boss. I have big plans! Travel! Rock and roll! But two days into my "retirement", I get an offer that's really, really, really hard to resist. I don't know what to do. On the one hand... back to my comfort zone, and in a prestigious organization. On the other... an uncertain future, but freedom.

I know this isn't even remotely close to being a bad problem to have, but why these forks in the road, universe? Can't you just give me one straight, well-lit path to follow?

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Had an informal chat with one of my young colleagues yesterday about his resignation. Unlike others like him whose reasons for leaving were job offers with (much) higher pay, he said he was quitting because he felt his youth was being wasted working for someone else when he could be spending the time building his own thing with his brother (who's in the same field and also quit his job recently).

I really respect these kids with big goals and the courage to go after them. I wish I could have been the same. Do dreams have expiration dates?
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Bryan Fuller and Hannibal

Oh, I didn't know that the creator of Hannibal (Bryan Fuller) also created two other shows I used to like watching: Dead Like Me and Pushing Daisies. So I guess I'm a long-time fan, just oblivious of the fact? :D

At least, Hannibal already escaped the 2-season curse of Fuller's previous shows. I hope it lasts the whole planned 6-season run. It's currently my favorite ongoing show. I think I actually liked Hannibal's most recent season better than the most recent Sherlock. And I'm a die-hard Sherlock fangirl! *gasp*

I love the beautiful cinematography, the loaded dialogue (nobody really talks like that in real life, but it's just so SEXY), Hannibal's elegant 3-piece suits, Will's cute dogs... and of course, the gorgeous food (I don't care if a lot of those are people xD).

That Hannibal season 2 finale, though... I have no words! Well, almost. I don't know whether to squee with kilig or die from the deluge of feels. It's been days since I've seen it, and my heart still races every time I think about those final few minutes. I don't think I can last waiting until next year!

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Dragged myself to the health clinic today for our APE (annual physical exam). Why these things are scheduled in the middle of summer is beyond me. The 15-minute trek from the office to the clinic under the glaring sun was horrible.

The consulting doctor found what were probably imaginary lumps on my breasts (I tried feeling for them after, but couldn't find any). I think she just wants the commission/TF on the breast ultrasound, which I heard was quite expensive, but that she confirmed was covered by my HMO (she asked me what my HMO provider was before prescribing the test). Okay. I didn't have time to take the ultrasound today (I was only on lunch break) so I'll just go back when the weather is cooler. If I die of breast cancer before then, you can all just leave i-told-you-so notes by my gravestone. ;P

If you're wondering why I'm being blase about this, it's just experience. Last year they found "cardiac arrhythmia" and prescribed a batch of what I'd also guess were pretty expensive tests (of course, covered by my HMO). I didn't go for those tests, because I saw the reading they based it on was just off by 1 point from the normal. And don't even get me started on all the other urinalysis re-tests and specialist consults from just a slight deviation on the normal urinalysis numbers (and that one doctor actually confided to me was "OA"). These health clinics are big business.